How It Was With Me

by Donna (38-J-3)

Making the acquaintance of Transvestia, has been a wonder- ful experience and a comforting reassurance that my position is not at all unique and that there are many others who have the same desires, preferences and problems.

I had always been ashamed of my desire to dress in girl's clothing and of the pleasure and satisfaction I obtained from wear- ing feminine attire and originally thought such behavior was something disturbing and peculiar to me alone, as I naturally assumed that males would never want to wear women's clothing. I am now 38 and it has only been in very recent years that I have finally and permanently "accepted" my great longing and desire to dress as a girl and become indoctrinated into the ways and joys of femininity.

I am a college graduate, a combat veteran, of normal height, weight and masculine appearance and have always liked girls. I say this, because as I first acquired a desire for wearing fem- inine attire, I assumed that no male could ever like to dress as a girl and still be a normal male. So acceptance of this comm- only viewed premise, that a male who liked to wear women's clothing could not be all male, led to constant doubt and wonder, shame and guilt. That is why I say that Transvestia is a comfor- ting reassurance.

I was the youngest child and had three older sisters, but I led a relatively normal male existence in my younger years and my definite desire and acceptance of feminine attire, comes from a much later period--my middle 20's, after I had come out of the Service and was working my way through college.

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